medication + highballs leads to thoughs like these

i scrawled this on a half sheet of binder paper before i fell asleep the other night. i worked until 11:30 and finished reading a book for class around 2/2:30a. i had thought about this before but taking my medication that makes me sleepy after nursing a 7&7 for a few hours made me think of mortality again. so here it is:

If you die in your sleep and there is no afterlife to allow you to ponder your existance, or even if there is, do you dream your final monents? would you know they were your final moments? would it be weird and mocking like dreams so often are or would it be a lucid dream that fades into nothing the way an epic movie scene will go silent in contrast to what is happening for dramatic efect? or will you just die and that's it?

there was a side story in the book that got me thinking about this again. the main character was telling the story of how her father was given up by his mother to his grandmother and had to sleep in the same bed with her. she always got up earlier than him to prepare breakfast. but one day he woke up and she was still there and then he realized she died in her sleep. i think the book asked the question of did she know she was going or maybe i thought that. it was a long day so i dont remember.

so, any thoughts on the subject?